Better ways wei~

You know, it really hurts and makes you seriously angry when you find out your friend was like heart broken or that something vry bad happen to them...it really makes you feel like murdering the person that hurt your friend, well for me that is...and feeling all this makes me feel like, if I do go through something like this, it'll hurt my friends too, and that's one of my fears....sigh

I feel the hurt they feel and makes me feel like having revenge on those hurtful ppl....sheesh, at least if you are to break up, do it nicely, not like "even if a truck bangs you down, I wouldn't care wat happen to you fat b*tch!" or like "You are a nobody now to me, your face is the ugliest thing I've ever seen in my life, why don't you just f*ck off you silly b*tch!"

Sheesh, there are way lest hurtful ways to let a person down, and not so rude ways too...
You ppl who have hurt my friends are in serious trouble if you push me of the edge,
cuz you guys are walking on thin ice with me....

And to my lovely friends, close or not so close, I be a shoulder for you to cry on, and Carmen, thank for the offer too :)

Its the best day ever!!

Hahaha, yes as you can see, its the best day ever to happen....hehehe, tks for the lovely poem and the sweet gift, meine Liebe . Had a great and awesome time :) We should do it again, for sure....



xoxo, muax!~

Poets of the Fall - Carnival of Rust

To breath the name
of your savior
in your hour of need
And taste the blame
if the flavor
should remind you of greed
Of implication, insinuation and it will
till' you cannot lie still
and all this turmoil
before red cape and foil
come closing in for a kill

CHORUS:
Come feed the rain
cause i'm thirsty for your love
dancing underneath the skies of lust
yea, feed the rain
cause without your love my life
ain't nothing but this carnival of rust


it's all a game,
avoiding failure
when true colors will bleed
all in the name
of misbehavior
and the things we don't need
i lust for after no disaster can touch
touch us anymore
and more than ever
i hope to never fall,
where enough is not the same it was before

CHORUS: X2
Come feed the rain
cause i'm thirsty for your love
dancing underneath the skies of lust
yea, feed the rain
cause without your love my life
ain't nothing but this carnival of rust

Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh
when the world is burning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh
when the heart is yearning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh
when the world is burning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh
when the heart is yearning

=)

0.o Poets of the Fall is nice, no they're not nice, they're AWESOME!!! Carnival of Rust is vry nice!! Roses too!!! Woohoo! They rock!


I'm vry high and happy now! =) Can't wait for Wed!! Lalalalalalah!!!

Weee~~ High in the sky!

Weee!! My heart isw flying in the air!!! Ahhhh, oh I'm so happy!!! Oh I can't wait this Wed, oh oh and I seriously curious about your suprise!!! Can't wait!!!

Crossfade - So Far Away

I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
(I've been changin' but you'll never see me now)
Now I'm blaming you for everything

No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away

[Chorus]
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything

No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
Cause I will be busy watching things going my way
Never looking back on this anymore
Because what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away

[Chorus]

I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for everything

I'm so far away

Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey hey I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say

[Chorus]

Now I'm blaming you

I'm so far away


SONG MANIA!!!!


Guilty - The Rasmus

I feel guilty
my words are empty
no signs to give you
i don't have the time for you

you say i'm heartless
and you say i don't care
i used to be there for you
and you've said i seem so dead, that i have changed
but so have you

guilty, guilty i feel so
empty, empty you know how to make me feel

i put a shield upon you
i didn't mean to hurt you
i would have only poisoned your mind
never meant to make you cry

you've been so thoughtless
i can see right through you
you used to be there for me
so don't you leave say goodbye
cause you have changed but so have i

i never thought that the time and the distance
between us made you so much colder
i'll carry the world on my shoulders

SHMUCK!!!!

Shucks lah wei.....I wanna go out and hang wit ppl but my parents won't allow....sigh but oh who cares I've got ideas and I can get it done ;D so yea hopefully I can get it done! hahaha today my heart leaped! And I don't mean I had a heart attack! Weeeeeee~!

Hoosbastank - The Reason

This song is vry nice, especially the beginning....enjoy!!

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you



Its really meaningful to me, especially rite now....a reason for me
to change who I used to be....

Pissed like Crazy!!

I don't know wat to type out...sigh is just that I'm so freaking pissed of at so many things and feel really angry and emo, yes you know me as a positive thinker, but thats on the outside, deep,deep,deep,deeeeepp,deeeeeepp down in my heart, I am really hurt, I've got this feeling that I just want to hurt myself till I bleed and feel pain, Argggg!!

Sigh, there are a few things that really made me mad, like...

1)First of, on Sunday, my bro had the BB gang to come and do their singing thingy, then there is this girl that seriously pisses me off, she like keeps on saying 'HI!' for no damn reason, sheesh...
2)Then I was working with idiots for a Vid we we're doing for the Holiday Fun Club promo then...
3)When we were taking a short break, Mister ass hole just had to go and play with my FB account(which was on cuz I was on it, then had to go away and do somethings with the video camera)and he almost post 'I love you' to a guy that I seriously find annoying!!
4)Then Carmen Chang just had to and tease me and hubert about kissing each other!! Damn, then...
5) Claudia Chai just had to push me over the edge, first of, she go and put soap on my face, then after awhail she hard to do a 'burn' on my hand, then after school, she go and wet me on the face, my right side of my face was wet!! Sheesh, its like I just want to murder her like hell!! but don't want to....>.<
6) Then today Claudia was like telling me her important secret,well to me that is, so we were like chatting, then I found something that seriously made me damn DAMN MAD!!!! Thank God this person doesn't know me!! So then as usuall someone had to come(which was DAVID!!) then she don't wanna tell cuz he was like around, so I was like kk we chat later....then after school I forgot about it, then I suddenly remembered and started asking her again, then some how I think I'm jinx, DAVID had to come and she didn't want to tell me AGAIN!!So I was like David can pls go away!! then he was like NO, only if I told him wat inspired me to draw this new pic of mine, I didn't want to, cuz its kinda privated from him....so he didn't leave, eventually he had to go home, so I was like YES!!!! But, Claudia ran away and go play this ping pong game with 3 ppl, so she avoided me AGAIN!!!
Sheesh, You know how annoying it is to know like part of a secret and not know the rest....sigh, Arggg!!! DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7) Oh yea, and after reading all those things, you can tell that I'm pissed at David too >:|

Hmphh, oh and I bet you Claudia is avoiding me now, I guess, cuz I send her an sms that showed my anger, so yea excuse me while I go and bash my hand on the wall~

BYE!! >:|

30 Seconds to Mars - This is War

A warning to the people
The good and the evil

This is war

To the soldier, the civilian
The martyr, the victim

This is war

It's the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world from the last to the first

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world

A warning to the prophet
To the liar, to the honest

This is war

To the leader, the pariah, the victim, the Messiah

This Is War

It's the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world from the last to the first

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world

I do believe in the light
Raise your hands into the sky
The fight is done
The war is won
Lift your hands toward the sun
Toward the sun, toward the sun, toward the sun
The war is won

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world from the last to the first

To the right, to the left
We will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth
It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world

A brave new world, the war is won, the war is won, a brave new world

I believe in nothing not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing not the day or not the dark
I believe in nothing not but the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing not 100 suns until we part
I believe in nothing not not in sin and not in God
I believe in nothing not not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothing not but the truth in who we are


Awesome song

hi yaH ppl how are yoU ppl!! hEre is a liTtlE brain BusteR for you guys!! this hAs the namEs of 4 boys i aCtuAlly Don't mind as a bf anD I'm a little bIt impresseD wIth them. Really, i don't mind them, some times i think they are cute, so if you'Ve figureD it out, sms me you answer, or talK to me face-to-face, cuz if you post on the cbox, i'Ll not aNswer...


have fun~

Wat an awesome day~

WooHoo!! Today was damn awesome wei...got to meet up with like friends I haven't seen in ages! I was a great day, even though I didn't win any medals....but still its such an awesome day....Started like this....

First thing first, I woked up bright and early!(well not really bright, was sooo tired slept at 12,up at 6:15)

Got ready, had breakfast and headed to school, met up with the ppl there and chat, chat, chat....then we went on the bus, I set next to Claudia, and those around her ate things with.....MINT!!! (p.s. She hates the smell of mint)

She got a bitupset, so I changed seats and went up in front and sat with chantelle and started listening to music....She ahh keep on listening to all the Adam Lambert songs I had in my phone till I got sick of it....

Reached the stadium, and breath in the fresh,polluted air into my lungs and entered the stadium.....and guess wat we were late for the opening ceremony xP

hah, then we headed in and watch the ping pong players, well play.....sad to say none of them won....but its ok you guys did your best! :) BUT!!! 1 person won...and the prize goes to.......DANIEL KONG!!!!! WooHoo! Good job Dan!

Then went to eat and chill while waiting to run....was soo boring!!! But anyway, my time came then....wait for me 'heat' and while waiting I get my tan/sunburn while waiting....When my time came, was damn freaking nervous, and there was only 4 ppl running instead of 6, cuz 2 drop out, lol...less to fight for the first place for the first round....so yea, the horn when of and I just run like hell!!!

While running, all I heard was just the PA guy talking, then out of no where, can hear super loud, shrieking voices shouting like crazy, so in my head I was thinking like, WTH! Why so lound wan this ppl, and who the heck where they cheering for....so I was aiyah, ignore only, then suddenly I heard "GO CHARIS!!!!" Then I was like, oh they were cheering for me *sheepish smile* Oh and tell you wat if fun to do, while you run, scream like hell, well that technique works for me....so yea ran like hell and got 1st for the first round, but I got last in the final round....sad, oh well

Then after that had nothing to do, just had more food, drinks, and chat with my old friends....and a vry long chat wit Hubert, then met a few of my old teachers, eat some more....then when it was time for 4x100 we when cheer for them, ran along side with them ( on the grass next to them, not in the track) and got so freaking tired.

Then after all the craziness, we got so bored and feeling hot, cuz the sun was super hot! So we all chipped in with our money coupons and bought like a few dozens of water bottles, and guess wat.....everybody opened the bottles, drank a bit, and then we go wet each other with water! Woohoo!! Was so damn fun wei, everybody got wet, EXCEPT Del and Carmen...che so sad, one go home, one cannot get wet, cuz we hav 'reasons' not to xP

Oh and the sun was so freaking hot that when we were all drenched with water, the sun completely dried us up! That's how hot it was....at the end of the day, we had some random fun running 400m for fun, Jaryl was first, Claudia was second, Karl was third, Jared was fourth, I was fifth, Eynon was sixth, Benny Seventh, and this Reuben so smart, go run even though his foot a bit of skin come out.....then we headed home...Wanted to put some weird bets for next year's sports day...haha, it was an interesting bet....

So we reached home chilled and all went back our own ways.....now soo tired liao....but still can't sleep cuz I loved this day SOOOOOO much!!!!

Oh well, got church tomorrow, so sad, have to wake up early again, hah, see yea next post xP





AWESOME DAY!!!

Ahhhh!!!! Ahhhhh!!!!!!

OMGOSH!!!! Guess wats around the corner.....ITS SPORTS DAY!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SSOOOOOOO DAMN EXCITED LIAO!!! GET TO SEE ALL YOU OLD CLDR PEEPS!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! Well, I'm happy to go sports day not for the sports, but for all my awesome friends that will be there, and also meet some new ppl :)

Can't wait ya'll!!!! WOOOHOO!!!!!
See you guys there!


Jajajajajajajajarrr!!! Cannot sleep adi....hahaha and somemore tomorrow have to share devotion in the morning! Hah!~

WEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sry feeling high, happy and super excited liao~

Seriously Confused

Seriously, too many ppl are either getting really annoying to me or just plain emo....sheehh....
Wanna be happy but freaking hard to be~
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJARRRR!!!!!!!!!!

Its like I seriously want to murder you all, but at the same time comfort and hug you....sigh complicated much, sigh I hate you ppl, but love you still~~



Random, I know xP

Remember the Name - Fort Minor

You ready?! Lets go!
Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about
It's like this y'all (c'mon!)

[Chorus]
This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

Mike! - He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em, he knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's all about reality and making some noise
Makin the story - makin sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up! let's go!

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a livin from writin raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

It's just twenty percent skill
Eighty percent fear
Be one hundred percent clear cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreckin with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game"
Came back dropped Megadef, took em to church
I like bleach man, why you have the stupidest verse?
This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin with S. Dot!

[Chorus]

They call him Ryu The Sick
And he's spittin fire with Mike
Got him out the dryer he's hot
Found him in Fort Minor with Tak
Been a fuckin annihilist porcupine
He's a prick, he's a cock
The type woman want to be with, and rappers hope he get shot
Eight years in the makin, patiently waitin to blow
Now the record with Shinoda's takin over the globe
He's got a partner in crime, his shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

Tak! - He's not your everyday on the block
He knows how to work with what he's got
Makin his way to the top
People think its a common owners name
People keep askin him was it given at birth
Or does it stand for an acronym?
No he's livin proof, Got him rockin the booth
He'll get you buzzin quicker than a shot of vodka with juice
Him and his crew are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they doin give a hundred percent

Forget Mike - Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed?
Ridiculous, without even trying, how do they do it?!

[Chorus - repeat 2x]

[Outro - Mike Shinoda]
Yeah! Fort Minor
M. Shinoda - Styles of Beyond
Ryu! Takbir! Machine Shop!





super addicted to it liao~

Jar! Freaking hard liao.....

Sigh, no matter how much I try, I still can't write a song.....ask me create a random poem for you, no problem.....but when I think up lyrics for my own song, I just can't, I find it freaking hard to......sigh sry Karmen.....

M.D.

Any idea wat M.D. is???

Here's a clue, the last word is Day and this day is important an its this Sunday...If you don't know give yourself a whack on the HEAD! Its Mother's Day!!!! Any ideas on wat you are going to do to show your appreciation to her, make sure its good!! she takes care of you so vry well, and we need to show our appreciation to her!!


Good luck on thinking up something for your mom!!

The Rasmus - Ten Black Roses

Life is like a boat in the bottle
Try to sail, You can't with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares
Through the glass you see the same faces
Hear the voices play fade a drum
When your life's a boat in a bottle
You're surrounded, drifting alone

Don't leave me now
Stay another day
With me

When you're sad, and no-one knows it
I'll send you black roses
When your heart's dark and frozen
I'll send you black roses

Far away we wait for each other
I'm still on that road to nowhere
Kiss yourself for me in the mirror
Tie a black rose into your hair

Don't lose your faith
Share another night
With me

When you're sad and no-one knows it
I'll send you black roses
When your heart's dark and frozen
I'll send you black roses

Ten Black roses
Ten Black roses

Life is like a boat in the bottle
Try to sail, you can't with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares

When you're sad, and no-one knows it
I'll send you black roses
When your heart's dark and frozen
I'll send you black Roses

Ten black roses...

What happen to us~~

It breaks my heart to see you all like this, it hurts you soo much that it hurts me....there is a big hole in my chest.....ya'll are in soo much pain till u can't even know that you ARE in pain.....

You may think I don't care, but truly my heart is crying for you.....that sadness you try to hide or that despair you say you don't feel anymore....but the truth is that you are definitely in a lot of hurt.....You just don't want to admit that you are hurt....and I understand ya'll don't share this wit me....but I can see that u truly need a listening ear....
I'll always be there waiting and available to be that listening ear you need when no one else will listen....I'll pray for you and comfort you with all my heart.....IF you let me too and I'll give my respects to you if you just want to have your privacy,but I'll always be ready to help in anyway I can.....my heart is in pain....because you're in pain.....


And listening to an emo song does not help when I typed this post.....

Encouragement...

The power of encouragement~ The power of encouragement is vry powerful....you could even save a person's life and its good for the soul....yours and the person you are encouraging! So give a person a nice BIG BEAR HUG and a GOOD PAT ON THE BACK and at least a nice, helpful encouragement!



P.S. Those that read this, you are awesome!